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It's weird that at the beginning of the this last summer when i graduated i felt like a complete kid and didn't have a care in the world. I had no plans and nothing mattered I didn't care at the time about what I really did for the next couple of years of my life. All I wanted to do is hang out with my friends and basically do nothing all day. My whole thought process back then was just not wanting to grow up and I wanted to do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted all the time. Then I got into trouble and it changed my whole perspective on life. Now just a few month later the only thing I do is go to college and work two jobs. To me i feel like I have grown up significantly maybe even against my own will. Like even though I do these things and it looks good to society and all that I feel like I spend no time having fun and doing things creative. Instead now I just do the same things everyday. Since I got in trouble I had a lot to pay for and my parents were on the verge of kicking me out if I didn't start doing something so I started working twice as much as I did and then got a car that I now have to pay bills for and insurance. I know it is the right things to do and and to keep progressing and growing up in life but I just hate how quick it had to happen. All i want to do is to go back to the beginning of this last summer just to relive it.