going crazy

Like i said in my last posts i will be going to jail pretty soon. I wanted to talk aobut in this post how scared i will be when i go in there. don't know if you can relate or not I guess if youve been you know what it is like but one of the things that makes me most scared is that when i do go i will be at monroe county which couldn't be a better place to go but the thing is that the guy that killed his whole family just because he wanted to be with another women and she wouldn't be with him till he lft them so he just killed them instead of getting a divorce. That dude is fucked up. Also even though its bad enough to kill your kids it takes a special type of person to be able to strangle your kids to death and watch the life go away from there eyes. I don't get how anyone can physically do that to anyone let alone the life that you made. I'm scared of him and just because i will be right there next to some crazy dude but also i have know clue what I would do if I were to see him. My first instinct would be to beat his ass. I personally think he should already be dead for what he did but its whatever. The whole situation is going to be crazy however it goes i just wish that i could go back and stop myself from ever haveing to go to jail in the first place.